Don't you ever grow up...

"I'd give all I have, honey 

If you could stay like that
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, 

just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, 

it could stay this simple..."

-Taylor Swift 

- Never Grow Up, Taylor Swift ♫
- Little Girl,  Jack Johnson ♫

I have a dream today.

"I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together."
- Martin Luther King

To catch a dream...

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! 

Live the life you've imagined."  

-Henry David Thoreau

(sophie, grace, & emma)

to catch a dream, you first need to jump.  (why are these little ladies so much cuter than the gals in my last post?) :)
not sure what i'm in for, but i just signed up for dream lab on a whim.  had to do it.  the word dream grabbed hold of me.  feeling a little bit crazy.

last week's whim was the fiction project.  i chose the theme "in flight", as it feels as though words are in flight, fluttering about in my head.  i just hope that the words will settle a bit, for me to capture them on the pages of my moleskin journal.

LAUGH

"Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age, 
and dreams are forever." - Tinkerbell

reflecting on last year's word for the year 2010...LAUGH.  this was a day when i definitely laughed.  i'm sure the man in the cowboy boots sitting on a nearby bench observing had a good laugh too!  ...as did our kids snapping the photo! 

Words for 2011

My word for 2011 is DREAM.  some would say i'm living vicariously through my children.  lindsay lou's word is DREAM too.  grace is in the thick of writing and illustrating a book... Polly's DREAM.  

but wherever i go, DREAM, is there too.  DREAM is screaming for me to pay attention.  "do you see me?" she says.  "i'm right here.  look up.  follow me.  fly.  you can do it."

WISH is right there with her.  she says, "if WISHes were DREAMs, only LOVE would be." 

i DREAM of what i WISH to be when i grow up... an artist?... a writer?  

but really, i am living my DREAM... to be a wife and mother.  it's all i ever really wanted to be.  

and now i wonder if maybe my DREAM to be a mother was designed perfectly so  that i could guide these daughters to discover their talents and gifts so that they could be the artist and writer, or whatever they DREAM to be.

alyssa is preparing to fly from the nest in search of her DREAMs, while clutching onto childhood.

lindsay, my DREAMer, has the courage to follow her DREAMs. i long for a pinch of that courage. 

emma runs like a kite in the wind as her DREAMs  try to keep up.

amazing grace has a spirit only seen in DREAMs. it's pure.  it's child-like.  it's carefree.

me?  i'll continue to live the DREAM.   
i'll close my eyes and WISH upon a star.
i'll open my eyes and continue to DREAM.
...and what will i see? 
only LOVE will be.

Seven Baskets Full.

sharing the grace i received this morning...the little happening showing me, God is with me.

background - my stomach has been in knots worrying about alyssa, my first born girl, how she won’t talk about her college preferences, or anything really.  i’ve been praying for our relationship.  this teen rebellion against mom has been killing me.  the eye rolls, the snippy comments, the walking on egg shells, the not knowing what i can or can not say or ask...it often sends me to bed in tears.

alyssa and  her friends have this little wednesday lunch thingy.  the moms take  turns bringing a home cooked meal to this little group of friends.  she sprung  this on me last week, two days before my week. now, apparently the  other moms live for this opportunity...but i was in a panic!  i can’t  cook...what do i bring that will stay warm...what would finicky teen girls  want to eat...yada yada. not to mention, i can't mess this up...she needs me again!

the day prior to my wednesday date, i took a deep breath and  set off on a field trip to the grocery store. i got a little of this and a little of that thinking i could surely pull some kind of pasta thingy together and I would win them over with some home baked cookies.   that i can do!

on my way out of Giant parking lot i  receive a text from alyssa, “how about Panera bread bowls?” the travelers behind me must have been wondering who was this cukey lady jumping  for joy at the red light! 

that evening Alyssa informed me that my week was  postponed till the following wednesday because some of the girls would not be  in school.

so today is my week and 7 bread bowl soups from Panera it  is!  i started my morning off making some homemade M&M cookies.   in between batches i read today’s mass readings and my morning devotion...titled- SEVEN  baskets full.  the story where Jesus feeds the crowd with seven loaves of bread.  Matthew  15:37.  “the number 7 is used to represent completeness or fullness.   Jesus is ready to give us more than we need.  trust that God will provide for each of us more than enough.”
 

i resisted the urge to  photo copy the devotion and staple it to the Panera bag.  i think that may be more than enough for any 17 year old.  :)  i’m going with yesterday’s  devotion that “a warm embrace can speak more powerfully than a scripture  passage”.  or in this case...some warm soup!

the scripture passage  was for me, this morning, timed perfectly for today, seven bread bowls for seven friends.  i’m trusting that my prayer for them will be more than  enough!

today is the anniversary of my father-in-law's entrance into heaven.  he had a special bond with his peanut, alyssa, his first born grandchild. 
i believe he is intervening and all will be well! 

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Skeletons in the Closet

i am literally putting the skeletons back in the closet.  goodbye halloween.  christmas is around the corner!  my glittery bony friends share a space in our 3rd floor "box room" with the other treasures that i either can't part with or really just haven't gotten around to pitching.   boxes never even opened since our move here 12 years ago and other "stuff" block a path to the christmas decorations.  the skeleton is out...i'm a secret hoarder!
i set off on an organizational tangent.  i pack full one car load of yesterday's treasures, to be shipped to our local thrift store, with the hope of some of it being rediscovered.  i am squeezing in thanksgiving...thinking gratitude as i survey the goods.
i finally part with the maternity clothes (11 years in storage).  i know friends who can't wait to rid themselves of these monster clothes.  why have I held on to these silly parachute items?  if by chance i was graced with pregnancy again, one would hoot and holler if i actually wore these!  holding on to that precious time when my baby girls were safe and sound in the womb?  now the oldest is preparing to leave the nest and college admission letters clutter the desk. 
time to part with the baby blankets, burp cloths, changing pads, toddler shoes, and the beatrice potter mobile.  in the box they go...  but wait...  i see that little blob of a bunny that sat in her crib awaiting her arrival.  i bring it to my face and breathe deep and smell the sweet scent of my once little girls.  i am reminded of my dream to be a mommy which came forth four times.  i have hope that by letting them go, giving them back to God, i will make room for more dreams.  thank you, my little rediscovered velveteen rabbit, for holding onto this sweet fragrance for me today.  you are coming with me out of the closet.  you will sit upon a shelf in my new creative space and encourage me to hope, to dream, to fly.